I Write Too Much.
He’s perfect(: <3
Can’t handle it.

Just one.
I’ll be fine.

Walks.

I go on walks instead of cutting now a days. When I fell the need to cut I force myself to go outside and walk.
Tonight I went on a huge walk. I was gone for about two hours and for the first half an hour I just walked. Then I decided to stop by my ex’s house (dumb idea) and I embarrassed myself but that’s okay because one day he we will just lay in bed and think, “damn, I should have hung out with her that one night”. Oh well his loss. So I left and went to the creek where I found a snake!!!(: I caught him and named him Phillip! Then I went to the lake with Phillip and let him go. I started walking again but the I heard coyotes so I decided to get out of the creek. U was going to see neah but By I time I was almost home I heard 4 cop cars. So I hoped my fence and stargazed in my backyard for about 2minutes got cold and went inside. now sleep(: goodness I can’t wait till tomorrow(:

What I want:

•a razor.
•to stop crying
•pills
• it all to be gone.
•To be dead

I know it’s not me and that’s what hurts the most…
I’m too scared to find out…

I’m so worried. ):

Yesterday(:

So I was too high to write a post about yesterday. But it was when of the best days ever. First at school I like never saw him. Then we had an assembly and I sat with my big brother and this guy I like. We made a lot of jokes. Then walked home with neah got weed. Then went to treys house with Scotty and kaley and smoked out of this huge ass bong. Went to my house and cleaned my room. Then went to neahs. We ate then we were gonna go to hookah but our ride got in trouble so we ate jimmy johns instead. Then I fell asleep and woke up still high(:

I get so happy when you talk to me..

  I wanna know who this is about.. maybe Lauren… I know it’s not about me.. I make you wanna throw up. I hope it’s someone worth it.. I shouldn’t care.. But I do… Whatever, Fake It Till You Make It. I just gotta move on. ):

Another fight. A possible broken wrist. Bruised ribs.

God I hope I get pain pills…

Wow. I hate you

Don’t even try anything. I’m sick of it.